Saturday, April 30, 2005
Dove
At the glance :
The dove as A Feeler
Shy -
sometimesfriendly -
alwayssensitive -
sometimespatient -
this part i dun think somoderate -
maybesupportive -
quiteloyal -
this part is true timid -
sometimes....retiring -
can't figure out abt tat thoughLikes to listen than talk -
I listen when I dun have anything to sayPuts ppl's welfare first -
I need to especially my Love OnesA natural team player -
yesWell liked and respected both for your good work and your easy style -
I dun know abt this thoughYou share your perceptions and feelings with others but only after you have ask them what they think or feel -
others whom I can trustYou tend to speak indirectly and often solicit the opinions of others
You are not one to assert yourself over others -
this one I got to ask my friends and colleguesTrive on collaboration, cooperation, team projects, group activities, mutual support and peaceful togetherness -
I need that most of the timeYou are rarely in a hurry and work at a steady, even pace.
you dun like pressure and you need some time to adjust to change-
I hate pressure so this is trueyou prefer to work with others and often take on the role of a peacemaker,
since you dun like conflict or confrontation -
I hate when there's confrontation cos after that I will do the work all by myselfdesire at work is to be part of a harmonious, productive team -
Yup this is definitely TRUEOne of the workshop that I went in learning to find answers abt Myself and how I can cope with ppl around me ( family and friends) and being a good leader. I also learn that I can also be a good motivator.
Thursday, April 28, 2005
Citer pasal garam dan temasek....
Dia: ah tu lah..even pah pergi kedai depan cakap' apek mintak garam satu!' dier tak paham... org sg apa cakap garam tak paham????
Aku: hehehe diorang dah jadi mat saleh celup ah tu
Dia: pah sengaja tak cakap english..sampai dier panggil manager sume kuar tanya garam tu apa
Aku: heheheh pah gi supermarket ke? atau kedai biasa takkan kedai biasa pun tak tahu garam tu apa
Dia dier dulu kedai biasa..dah tukar jadi macam minimart ah rumah pah mmg kampung melayu per
Aku: minimart pun still tahu apa garam tu apa
Dia: aah tu ari pergi shopping kat fareast...cina tu "boleh" pun dier tak paham.....hmm rupanyer kat far east tu banyak pekerja china mari nyer..slack betul ah
Aku: kan fira dah cakap banyak china nya orang kat sg
Dia: so sg dah tak macam dulu ler...dah lang identiti sg ..maka pah rasa tak bagus la melayu dok situ lagi
Aku: tengok muka takkan ah tak tahu
Dia: tapi pah rasa satu ari akan jadi satu poblem besar kat sg tu
Aku: wat do u mean? problem apa yang akan melanda temasek kita tu?
Dia: sebab orang yg tak sepatutnyer dok sg..ada kat situ..diorang tak paham adat turun temurun tempat tu...nanti mesti ada kekecohan
la macam binatang asing kita bawak pada satu tempat asing..terus ada poblem besar..sama la
Aku: fira rasakan fira patut balik....tak nak kasi muka kat diorang tu biar diorang tahu kita tak seperti apa yang diorang sangka
Semakin hari semakin banyak alien alien di temasek....diorang tu pikir tu negara diorang ke? Tahu lah negara diorang tu tak secanggih negara temasek tapi bila dah masuk negara orang tu pandai pandai lah bawak diri....jangan jadi "
seperti rusa masuk kampung" entah betul ke tidak peribahasa aku ni...heheh
**Intermission**Citer pasal casino lak.........
Dia: aah lagi sekarang nak bukak casino la plak...ni semua ajaran sesat ler
Aku: lagipun yus pun tak nak migrate ke mana mana
Dia: makin orang orang tak senonoh lagi nanti nak duduk kat sg ari ari nak judi
Aku: fira dengar jugak pasal casino tu
Dia: then duit dier bayar orang semua dari hasil judi ni semua pada pah menempah mala petaka la
Aku: tul tu pah tapi jadi ke diorang nak buka casino tu..... i tot masih dalam perbincangan pahlawan_aku: aah kalu dah buta nak duit...tu la..nanti sg poblem besar padahal banyak source lain yang diorang boleh buat untuk sg
Dia: cina buat duit mmg pandai..tapi part tamak haloba tu yg tak tahan...
Aku: diorang mmg mcm tu kalau part duit..... calculative
Dia: aah tapi berkira tu ok la jugak..melayu pun bleh belajar kira pah ok ngan cina..sebab ramai guru2 pah dulu yg buat pah pandai ke sekolah ramai guru cina..so masih guru..tapi cina bangang ni yg bingit
Aku: cina bangang?.... apa seh cina bangang?
Dia: macam famili slenge gak ahApa yang akan terjadi pada temasek kita??? Boleh ke kita mengajar anak anak kita kelak?? Temasek yang dulu aman dan damai akan bertukar wajah...boleh ke kita katakan pada mereka temasek tu milik kita?? Susah ahhhh...
Wednesday, April 27, 2005
Today I have nothing to say
No thoughts abt my life
but there's a lot of thoughts abt work
Im trying to figure out whether I should
do a time table of my Life
But I know that I can't
Cos I never into organizing things
Im not systematic like Lina
Mine is always spontaneous
Tuesday, April 26, 2005
Kalau kamu rasa saya tak gembira
Terus terang saya katakan
yang saya amat gembira sekali
Walaupun saya tahu semua itu
hanya sementara
Ku terima keindahan ini
Tapi ku takut ia akan pergi
dari ku tak lama lagi
Tapi selagi aku berdaya
selagi aku masih ada disini
ku harap kita akan tetap bersama
Monday, April 25, 2005
Dugaan datang tanpa kita sedari
Antara kita boleh menghadapinya
Atau pun tidak
Kalau kita tak dapat menghadapinya
Impian yang kita bina
Musnah ditengah tengah lautan dugaan
Tapi Dia memberi kita dugaan itu
untuk kita sedar bahawa kita hanya insan biasa
yang tidak dapat lari dari dugaanNya
Marilah kita sama2 menghadapinya
Bersyukur ngan pemberianNya
Dan redha ngan kehendakNya
Itulah dia MANUSIA
Friday, April 22, 2005
Love is like a sun
Showers us with all the warm that we need
Until we feel warmth with love
Making us feel beautiful in Life
Then without any signal the sun fade away
The black cloud came
The love u once had is now gone
Gone with wind of change
Now u are left alone
Alone in the street
with nothing more to say
But just pray thatLove will come again
*Time will tell3 years is a long time to let go of LoveBut then if it meant to make the other person happyLetting Love go is the best thing to doAt least u know that cupid arrow once struck your heart
This reminds me of u so so much of u ...........
It's just the way you kiss my neck,
That lets me know you care.
It's in the way you look in my eyes,
That tells me you'll be right there.
It's in the way you hold me close,
Until the tears have faded away.
It's in the way you know how I feel,
With just one look, nothing to say.
It's the kisses you place upon my lips,
It's the way your hand fits mine.
It's in the words you told your friends,
We'll be together for all of time.
It's the three words you say everyday,
That make the tears evaporate.
It's in the smiles made just for me,
That saves me before too late.
You make me feel beautiful,
No matter how much skin is on show.
I'm falling so deep in love with you,
You feel the same, it's true, I know.
"You're so in love, it's clear to see",
That's what they tell me now.
"He totally adores and loves you",
Can't believe you fell for me somehow.
There's no feeling of emptiness,
When I have you by my side.
And with just one kiss of yours,
You can erase the pain inside.
And when I lay inside your arms,
I feel so happy, so complete.
You make me want to live,
This feeling I cannot beat.
It's in the way you smile at me,
And whisper, "I love you",
It's the way you do everything,
That lets me say "I love you too".
Wednesday, April 20, 2005
Dua insan bertemu
Dan menjalin persahabatan
Persahabatan yang terjalin
berputik menjadi cinta
Ikrar diberi untuk hidup bersama
Tapi halangan dan dugaan datang tanpa diundang
Keluarga yang dirasakan dapat memberi sokongan
menentang perhubungan yang suci
Mereka pasrah
Pasrah ngan ketentuannya
Mahligai istana pasir yang mereka bina
musnah dipukul ombak
Tapi ingatlah kita yang merancang tuhan yang menentukan
Jangan jadikan itu sebagai alasan
Kerana kita tak tahu apa yang akan terjadi dimasa hadapan
Dia yang menentukan jodoh kita
Dan kita kena usaha kearah jodoh itu........
Jangan putus asa wahai sahabatku.......!
Tuesday, April 19, 2005
I think sometimes I am being self centre
I want everything to go my way
But I always have everything done
Dateline is always on time
No matter how panic I get
I still got everything ready
But I forget one thing
People feelings.........
For me work is work
Play is play
I dun like to mixed my feelings when Im working
cos it aint professional
I know rite now, they are judging me
Judging me for who I am
So as far as Im concern
I will just keep low.....
As low as possible
At least I do my own work
and they do their
But then again if I dun put pressure no work is done
So which is better?
Being cold hearted and have work done on time or
being shweetttt and no work done
You be the judge to it..........
Sunday, April 17, 2005
Hari Malas sedunia.........Hari ininya hari aku
malas nak keluar......
Nak bergerak ke bilik mandi pun malas
Nak makan pun malas
Apa lagi nak bergerak ke dapur
Nak online pun malas
Nak telephone tapi malas
Nak berbual ngan orang pun malas
Nak dok diam tapi rasanya macam banyak sangat benda nak cakap
Jadi aku bertandang lagi ke sini
Tengok apa yang perlu diperbaiki
apa yang perlu di tambah
Dan semada ada yang sudi bertandang kesini
mencari aku
Rasanya tidak......
Ahhhh
Malasnya aku nak fikir
Tapi otak aku tak boleh berhenti
Rasanya lebih baik aku lepak kat atas katil
Fikir nama baby pun bagus jugak
Ahhh bila lah aku nak ada baby ni?
*termenung*Conclusion : Hari ni hari malas aku....
dan rasanya lebih baik aku tido dari mengingatkan kemalasan ku ini
Tak pun aku gi kacau kacau orang
hmmm sebelum aku sempat kacau orang
Dah ada orang kacau aku.....
*mengeluh*
Saturday, April 16, 2005
Been a bit busy lately....
Dun know if I ever have time to blog
Anyway, here I am writing again
It's raining rite now.......
Here I am listening to my blog song
Damn I love this song and at the same time I hate it......
"Secret Garden" the title from Jerry Mcguire movie
Yus was telling me the other day tat my fav song was on the radio
Dear: Lagu fav u....kat radio
Me: Really? Lagu apa?
Dear: Jerry Mcguire
Me: Secret Garden?...*smile that he remembers....sadness cos it makes me think abt old times*
Dear: A'ah
That was the reason I put this song in my blog
When u hear a song and tat song makes u wanna cry
What does it mean?
Are u being emotional
over something u do not know or realised?
Or does that song reminds u of something?
Something that keep weighing u down
Making u feel sad, guilty, confused & frustrated
Well this song makes me feel emotional
Emotions that I can never describe
Secrets will always remain a secrets......
*Betrayal is painful than death
Myself???
You're a very mellow, care-free person. Your
exactly what calm, cool, and collected mean.
You never overreact or panic in a bad situation
and you always know what to do. Everyone goes
to you for advice because you never lose your
head so your very reliable. You tend to take
everything in stride, like in school your moto
is just sit back and relax not to say you dont
pay attention and work, but you dont overexert
yourself. Even though people come to you for
counciling(sp?) you can still be very quite,
your not good with making new friends, but your
extremely close to the ones you have. Remember
its ok to put your emotions out there even
though there is a chance they might get hurt.
Also in school sometimes its good to stress out
a little, just because you think you dont need
to study doesnt mean you should'nt, and also
try to push yourself more even though you might
be good where you are doesnt mean you can,t be
better. Check out my new short story.
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Friday, April 15, 2005
Is this me?
Your wise quote is: "Reality bites with a
variety of sizes of teeth"(-Tony Follari)
As a person, you think life is just plain
painful, horrible and everything else you don't
like. Happy people confuse you. Alot. I mean,
why are they so happy anyway? You are depressed
and perhaps utterly alone and live life rather
montone. You feel there is no reason to really
be here and feel helpless.
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Was just reading some of horoscope in the net today......what is this horoscope trying to implying on me and him?
You and Him can overcome any bumps on the road.
Let the party train pass on by, blowing its slightly irritating horn -- the two of you are thinking smaller-scale. But, of course, just as much (if not more) fun will be had. First assemble your favorite snacks, books and magazines, board games, art supplies, great music, hot or cold beverages -- you get the picture. Hole up at whoever's place is coziest (or wherever there are the least irritating roommates). Now you're ready for your mellow-but-giggly voyage to inner space. Have a nice trip!
Interpretion of it (from my buddy and me) :
Buddy: not many agree to u both's frendship
Buddy: but..u both just dont care
Buddy : just ignoring the surrounding
Me: doing the impossible
I guess this is true we are doing the impossible....
then again he always says tat nothing is impossible......
Not even our relationship........
Wednesday, April 06, 2005
Mak saya pesan lebih baik sibuk kan diri
dari menyibukkan diri........
Tengah busy giler
Mana nak hantar proposals
* buka e-mailMana nak gi field trip
* baca kertas layangMana nak hantar project baru
* tgk bakul sampahMana nak kemas umah
* gigit kukuMana nak basuh baju
* tgk tingkapMana nak gi dating
* otak bergerakMinda ku sekarang ni terusik
ngan perangai manusia manusia yang tak bertanggungjawab
yang mencemari alam sekitar ............
membuat otak ku menjadi beku dan dada ku menjadi sesak
Sunday, April 03, 2005
Sisters......13 years ago
In sch..........
Lin, Dayang n Me
was talking abt Life
Life tat we gonna do in the future
Marriage was one of the factors
Since I was a oldest among them
they predicted tat i married first
n Dayang, the youngest
was suppose to get married last.........
Looking abt thru' time 2005
everything changing....
If the world's changing, why can't we?
Changing for a better is good but if changing for the worse
U just end up hurting yourself n ppl around u
Dayang got married
With Is n not to Lan which we tot their relationship would last forever
They got a baby girl .......
Ever since tat fateful day we didn't keep in touch wif her
Then we got to know tat they got divorce
Recently we got to know tat she's a flight stewardest with Emirates
Lin on the other hand got engaged recently
After so long of being together
it's abt time they do something abt their relationship
Going to get married in either end of tis year or next
But I know tat she's not ready abt marriage......
She's not sure whether he's the one
Do some soulsearching sis...
Think before u take the big leap........
Me got married after so many complications
Rather foolish but then again this is the rite thing I should do.......
Hurting other ppl is not my game
Now Im trying to get a baby
but then again I do not know whether I should have one
I guess my career should comes first
No matter wat I am trying to be a good wife to him
Even though I know tat when it comes to the affair of the hearts
I am totally lost.....
*lost in the lalang
Lin n me still keep in touch wif each other
but Dayang just gone like dat
We were once friends...
then we became sister
I hope we will not end up as foe.........
Ppl says tat 2's a company 3's a crowd.........
but we were never a crowd.....
We will always be sisterz...........
Dated: 030405 Time: 0255 (s'pore)Place: in the hospital
I knew tat he was ill
but i just got to know tat it was pancrea cancer
Then he had a operation
to remove the cancer
A 79 years old man
wat do u expect doc's??
U should know abt this beforehand
But the operation was a success
Success but with complication
His kidney was failing....
his heart his slowing
Anytime he will be gone..........
My niece was telling me
tat all of them want to take off the life support machine
I told her
"dun u care wat ppl want
If u can't find the answer, ask Abah
He will tell u
Just tell him to show a sign.........."
And she told me he did show a sign
tat he want her to take off the life support machine
But we didn't expect his body to resist to dialysis
So they off the dialysis machine
knowing very well tat his BP gonna go down drastically
Leaving him fighting for his last breathe
How I wish tat I was there
my brother in law death was like a dream
A phone call tat I recieved
was like a dream
Dream tat it felt like a nightmare
A good man....loves me n my sibling like his own
He is my Kak Long's husband
Even though Kak Long no longer with us
We still treat him like our brothers
He is one of the greatest brother tat I ever had
He always gave me encouragement advices
He left his daughter Ekin.....
How I wish tat I cud take care of her
but I have my own responsiblity .....
I cud only say to her tat Be Brave!
Just remember tat Allah loves him more
Dated: 030405 Time:0752(s'pore)
Sms came thru'
saying tat
"Mayat akan dimandikan pd kul 0830,
dikebumikan pd kul 1030"my tears was like rolling
This is really true....
I have to accept the fact.....
But rite now I still can't accept the fact tat he's gone
Leaving us.........
one day we will be following him ........
Just now, when I was saying the Yassin
I felt something.......
I smell a very strong smell of pacai
I just continue my prays for him
May Allah always be with him........
