humanistic

Me

2010-06-02T06:53:00.000-07:00

it's been a while since I wrote something here....

Dun know what to write in the first place. A lot of things happen and a lot of things to say but then dun know where to start.....

Lets just sit back and watch the space.....

2007-05-02T22:59:00.000-07:00

I can't sleep. Im so stress with my work. I dun know whether I can make it or not. It's a dog world out there. Im trying to survive. I know that I can't lose this battle.HELP ME!

Are we still friends?

2007-04-22T08:37:00.000-07:00

Convo' that we juz had this morning
are juz too lame
We are no longer wat we used to be
I felt that you are different
Different with the way u talk
and the way you see things
I do not know whether I should confide in you
I lose the confidence you once gave to me

Sorry to say, I juz have the feelings that you are reluctant to talk to me
or even reply to my sms
Now, I sound stupid with my words
I wanted to tell u,
" Are we still friends or wat?"
Maybe this is your ego talking or maybe it's mine

I appreciate this friendship. I lost once and looks like Im losing it one more time
Friendship means a lot to me
But then again u making me look like a fool
I guess you had me at hello
Thanks for replying to me.....

Aku

2007-04-21T09:28:00.000-07:00

Aku tetap Aku
Berdiri menunggu,
Sesuatu yang tak pasti.
Menunggu mu,
Tapi kau tetap membisu.

Aku tetap Aku
Berdiri disini,
Melihat kau berlalu.
Berlalu tanpa menoleh padaku

Aku tetap Aku
Berdiri sendiri
Diam dah terus membisu

2007-04-08T08:44:00.000-07:00

It's been ages (like when the police wearing bermudas)
But here I am....writing to u goblog my gobloking life
Well too many things happening in my Life until I do not know where to start
Well I will give it a try k Gob...

2006-02-11T08:43:00.000-08:00

Aku dapat rasakan kita sudah terlalu jauh.
Hubungan yang terjalin seperti pupus ditelan ombak Tsunami
Kita sudah tak semesra dulu
Apabila aku berbual ko mcm tak nak layan
Ko kata banyak keje tapi takkan sedikit waktu pun tak de untuk ku
Kalau dulu ko selalu aje ada masa untuk ku
tapi kenapa sekarang ko kata sebaliknya

Ko kata aku berubah tapi hakikatnya sapa yang berubah
Ko atau pun Aku?

Rasanya tak payahlah aku terus bertanya
Aku rasa lebih baik aku berdiam
Ku hanya berdoa semoga ia terjadi ngan kebaikkan
Ku doakan kebahagian dan kesejateraan mu
dan aku juga harap ko akan doakan untuk kebaikkanku
Aku rindu kemesraan yang lalu
Kenangan itu akan tetap ku kenang sampai ke akhir hayatku

Ko akan tetap mengatakan yang ko tak berubah
tapi hakikatnya kita sama sama berubah
Berubah ngan masa dan keadaan
Dan aku Pasrah.....................

A Brand New Life

2006-01-03T02:00:00.000-08:00

A brand new LIFE! A brand new DAY!
Sometimes in LIFE when u think that this is coming to a FULLSTOP,
u will start to have a mixed feelings of everything.....
U will just pray that this is the BEST thing...
n u have to ACCEPT it.
Well actually u are WRONG....
This is just a TURNING POINT.....
U have a long way to go before u reached the FULL CIRCLE.

That is the circle of LIFE!

Bintang

2006-01-03T01:57:00.000-08:00

Bintang......
Masih sudikah kamu menjadi teman kuatau mungkin sekadar mengisi kekosongan malam?
Ku takut untuk mengingati dan merindui mu
Ku takut nanti awan dan bulan mencemburui KITA

Bintang....
Ku hanya mampu melihat mu dari jauh
Kerana ku tahu dirimu bukan untuk ku seorang
Ku harap angin dapat menyampaikan hasratku ini

Bintang......
Walaupun diri ni tidak mungkin dapat bersamamu
tapi sedar lah bahawa kamu sudah memiliki sebahagian dari hati ini
Kerana itu saja yang mampu ku beri

Bintang.....
Terima kasih di atas segalanya.....
Tetaplah menjadi bintang dilangit
Biarlah sinarmu tetap menemani diri ni untuk selama lama nya

Goodbye 2005, Welcome 2006

2005-12-31T06:45:00.000-08:00

2005
Mengajar aku erti kehidupan, kekeluargaan, sahabat dan perkahwinan.
Dari semua itu hanya satu yang dapat ku ulasan
Ia memberi aku satu nafas baru
Nafas yang amat menyegarkan diriku
Dan menginsafkan aku

2005
Dugaan yang datang akan kutempuhinya dengan tabah
Kebahagiaan yang ku kecapi adalah berkat doa dari ibuku
Itu yang membuat aku lebih matang lebih menghargai dan lebih berdisiplin
untuk menjadikan aku seorang anak dan isteri yang baik.
Tapi kenangan yang aku perolehi darinya akan aku simpan hingga ke akhir hayat ku
Selamat tinggal 2005

2006
Welcoming my new meaningful career.
My new image
My new attitude
My new Me

We are Like the Painter
Painting scenes in our Life
Sometimes the scenes could be beautiful
and some are so ugly that we dun dare to look again
No matter what
This is our Life...

Aku

2005-12-29T07:30:00.000-08:00

Bila aku letak gambar aku rasanya dah macam tak mystery lagi aku ni......
tapi rasanya ini adalah yang terbaik untuk mengetahui rahsia disebalik persahabatan yang terjalin di internet ni...
Walau apa pun tak kisah lah what they think of me.....
As I am what I am.....
Yang penting aku ikhlas bila aku menjalinkan persahabatan dengan mereka

*Cerita ini tak de kena mengena dengan sesiapa...this is what I feel and think of myself

Kanak-kanak riang

2005-12-29T07:19:00.000-08:00

When we are young,

we tend to be adult.

When we are a adult,

we want to be a child

But no matter what it is....

There is always a child in our heart.

Songs

2005-12-28T01:19:00.000-08:00

Alicia Keys - Karma

Weren't you the one that said, that you don't want me anymore.
And how you need your space, and give the keys back to your door.
And how I cried and tried and tried to make you stay with me.
But still you said that love was gone, and that I had to leave.
Now you, talkin bout a family
Now you, sayin I complete your dream
Now you, sayin I'm your everything
You confusin me
What you say to me
Don't play with me
Don't play with me.

*Cause what goes around, comes around.
What goes up, must come down.
Now who's cryin, desirin to come back to me
What goes around, comes around.
What goes up, must come down.
Now who's cryin, desirin to come back

I remember when
I was sittin home alone
Waitin for you
Til 3 o'clock in the morn
And when you came home, you'd always have some sorry excuse.
And explainin to me, like I'm just some kind of a fool
I sacrifice the things I want to doto make for you
But when it's time to do for me, you never come through
Now you, wanna be a bond of me (eyyy)
Now you, have so much to say to me (heyy)
Now you, wanna make time for me
What you do to me.
You confusin me
Don't play with me
Don't play with me.

*Cause what goes around, comes around.
What goes up, must come down.
Now who's cryin, desirin to come back to me
What goes around, comes around.
What goes up, must come down.
Now who's cryin, desirin to come back

I remember when
I was sittin home alone
Waitin for you
Til 3 o'clock in the morn
Night after night
Knowin sumthing goin on
Wasn't home befo me
You was,you was gone
Lord knows it wasn't easy, but believe me.
Never thought you'd be the one that would deceived me.
And never do wha u was supposed to do
No need to hose me fool, cause I'm ova you

*Cause what goes around, comes around.
What goes up, must come down.
Now who's cryin, desirin to come back to me
What goes around, comes around.
What goes up, must come down.

It's called Karma baby.
And it goes around.

Goblogku

2005-12-27T12:05:00.000-08:00

It's been a while since I wrote something here
Well Im not going to write much...
Only to tell my goblog that there still love in my heart....
I hope that the love I have,will keep me coming back here

What is it with Love?

2005-07-06T08:14:00.000-07:00

What Is It With Love?

A period of time has passed
Hate & love play in my heart
What is it with my love?
It's very difficult to express it all out

Never ever keep it deep inside you
Just spill out everything that you feel
That love is what we feel
When our love hurt, our hearts will suffer

Oh, the poet of love
Let it caress beautifully
Follow as my heart has always been
Be honest with yours

What is it with love?
That made our differences
Be as one
In the most beautiful poetry ever

If our worlds are torn apart
Let us always be together

Aku cinta kau dan dia

2005-07-05T07:08:00.000-07:00

Aku Cinta Kau dan Dia

Hancur hatiku mengenang dikau,
Menjadi keping-keping setelah kau pergi,
Tinggalkan kasih sayang yg pernah singgah antara kita,
Masihkah ada sayang itu…

Memang salahku yg tak pernah bisa,
Meninggalkan dirinya ‘tuk bersama kamu,
Walau ‘tuk terus bersama kau nada hati akan terluka,
Masihkah ada sayang itu…

Skali lagi maafkanlah,
Kerna aku cinta kau dan dia,
Maafkanlah ku tak bisa tinggalkan dirinya…

Mungkin tak mungkin ‘tuk terus bersama,
Dalami semua cinta yg tak dijalani,
Tapi bila itu yang kau fikir yang terbaik untukmu,
Bahagiaku untuk dirimu…

Skali lagi maafkanlah,
Kerna aku cinta kau dan dia,
Maafkanlah ku tak bisa tinggalkan dirinya…

Simpan sisa-sisa cerita cinta berdua,
Walau tak tercipta cerita cinta berdua…

Still I have in my eyes,
Still I have forever…

Memang salahku yg tak pernah bisa,
Meninggalkan dirinya ‘tuk bersama kamu,
Walau ‘tuk terus bersama kau nada hati akan terluka,
Dan ku tahu kau tak mahu…

Skali lagi maafkanlah,
Kerna aku cinta kau dan dia,
Maafkanlah ku tak bisa tinggalkan dirinya…

Still I have in my eyes,
Still I have forever…

Tentang dia

2005-06-13T21:23:00.000-07:00

Ada yang hilang
Ketika kau hilang
Hatiku
Jiwaku

Ada yang pergi
Ketika kau pergi
Senyum ku
Tawa ku

Hidupku ikut hilang bersama mu
Cintaku ikut pergi bersamamu

Sementara aku masih disini
mencuba tegak berdiri
tanpamu

Marriage

2005-06-05T04:14:00.000-07:00

It's been a while since I wrote something here
Well, I've been quite busy and there's nothing much to say
Except that my nephew getting married in 2 weeks time
To this girl name Ain
He's 27 this year and Im not sure abt the girl
Marriage is a big thing
But if he's prepare
Mentally and Physically
I have nothing to say.....
I can only pray that your marriage will last for the lifetime...........

Happy Marrige Life
Walk the Journey of Marrige
with Trust, Responsiblilies and Love

2005-05-19T06:56:00.000-07:00

Some ppl believe in horoscope
whereas others just pass them as a reading material
Well I dun really quite believe on this
But wat a hack!
Happy reading....................
This are some horoscope from ppl I love...........

April

Individu yang amat sukar untuk jatuh cinta dan amat memilih pasangan.
Selalu memendam perasaan terhadap individu yang dicintai.
Sukar dan malu dalam meluahkan isi hati.
Sentiasa ingin diberi perhatian.
Amat cemburu dalam perhubungan.
Kesetiaan teguh terhadap pasangannya.
Emosi cepat terusik dan mudah terluka.
Sentiasa menjaga hati pasangan dan pandai memujuk.
Romantik dan terlalu romantik
Sukar melupakan pasangan walaupun dilukai.
Sukar berlaku curang dan amat menyayangi pasangan.
Kebanyakan orang yang lahir dalam bulan ini boleh dianggap 'hamba cinta'seperti Laila, Juliet, Siti Zulaikha .
Pasangan Ideal: Lahir dalam bulan 4,7,11,2

november
Banyak helah dalam menghadapi pasangan.
Cermat dan teliti dalam menjaga perhubungan.
Amat berahsia dengan pasangan dan sesiapa.
Degil dan engkar dengan pasangan.
Tidak suka dikongkong oleh pasangan.
Mudah ambil berat terhadap pasangan.
Tidak menghargai perhubungan.
Sambil lewa dalam perhubungan.
Emosi yang mendalam dan tidak romantik langsung.
Perangai tidak dapat diramal terhadap pasangan.
Kurang menhargai pasangan dan hal-hal percintaan.
Kurang bersama dengan pasangan.
Pasangan Ideal: 4,7

Ogos
Tidak serius dalam perhubungan
Mengambil mudah dalam perhubungan
Kesetiaan di ragui.
Pandai memujuk pasangan
Suka memimpin pasangan.
Romantik, Pengasih dan Penyayang.
Kelam kabut dalam perhubungan.
Sering bertukar pasangan
Sukar mencari pilihan yang tepat
Sangat sensitif dan tahap cemburu yang minima.
Mudah meluahkan kat cinta pada sesiapa yang berkenan.
Pasangan Ideal: Lahir bulan 1,6,10,12.

Dun know whether this is true or not
Not 100% true though.........

Horoscope

2005-05-14T13:01:00.000-07:00

Horoscope of two ppl in my Life...............

Aries in LoveMarch 21-April 19
Aries is the cardinal-fire sign which translates into life loving andhighly energized and this describes their needs concerning love as well.
As a partner they make life exciting, albeit occasionally tiring, and youcannot help but feel rather joyful and light hearted when you're in their company.
It's that blend of innocence (the lamb) with pure power (the ram)that is so captivating about an Aries mate.
They don't understand themeaning of the word routine, however, and boredom is the number one killerof Aries romances.
Aries loves as boldly and as strongly as it experiences life.
From sports to personal challenges Aries are usually not happy unlessthey are moving after something.
With Mars as their ruling planetoftentimes their entire lives are about channeling and putting that immense power to work for them.
It's not uncommon to find an Aries firmly committedto a long term volatile arrangement that leaves those around them wondering why they would stay.
The truth is they often thrive on that kind of intensity and it can do far less damage than existing within a relationship that has grown routine and stagnant.
When an Aries loves they LOVE.
The partner is hoisted up onto a pedestal whether they want to be there or not and they become a treasure to be protected and guarded passionately.
The love of an Aries life often becomes the driving motivation for their challenging goals and the phrase, "I did this for YOU" is one heard in many of the best Aries relationships.

Aries Sexuality:
An Aries sexuality is driven, powerful and almost a feat of showmanship when they are truly captivated.
Since Aries tend to beaction/goal oriented sex can become a series of higher plateaus involving anything their fertile imaginations can conjure up.
Aries are the zodiac show-off and the bedroom isn't excluded from their dramatic and captivating ability to get partners undivided attention.
The more appreciated they feel the more they invest in their lovemaking and private boundaries exist onlyto give an Aries something to leap over.
Marathons of passion, spontaneousliaisons in the most unexpected places and inexhaustible stamina are all part of the Aries basic sexual make-up.

The long term story:
Lots of pampering and a lot of attention is neededwith an Aries lover as they thrive on feeling they are number one in your life.
They love to do the initial chasing and are usually not attracted to being chased but once their heart is given you can't ever over-do your displays of affection.
While they can be jealous and possessive you cannot show the same qualities and any kind of clinging is a sure fire way todrive them into new pastures.
Under all the Aries bravado and show is actually a rather innocent child who simply wants to explore the wonderful world around them and to be appreciated.
The more encouraged they are in either area the more exuberant they become.

Positive Traits in Love:
Exuberance, expressiveness, passion, generosity,adoration, protectiveness, adventuress, fun loving, creative and energizedlovemaking, and devotion.

Negative traits:
Temperamental, jealous, possessive, ego oriented,inconsiderate, reckless, fickle.

What an Aries likes:
Being number one, A positive attitude, A life loving comrade, A. partnerwho has style or a 'look', Being Seen Getting gifts, Loyalty, Being activetogether. Romance and dazzle.

What an Aries Dislikes:
Being bored, Being chased, Sloppiness in a mate, Criticism, Anything mundane, Feeling unappreciated, Feeling inferior, Losing, Having to repeat things.

Displays of insecurity.Aries Love Keywords:Dramatic, romantic, original, passionate, energized, creative, spontaneous.

Leo in ! LoveJuly 23-August 22
Leo is the fixed fire sign.
Think contained flames.
Like a campfire that needs constant attention to keep alive and warm.
There is a deep love forlife and all of its possibilities...including its luxuries and that love transfers over beautifully into how a Leo expresses their feelings.
Love with a Leo is like a magnificent encounter with the sun.
They are warm and supportive when their heart is given and their affections grow stronger the more they feel that their partners care about them and adore them in return.
Leo's are dramatically romantic and not afraid to show it. They enjoy pulling their loved ones out into their world and radiate when they feel their partners compliment some quality about themselves.
Love becomes a thing of luxury and the partner receives the abundance of their personal Leo's attention, lust and emotions.
Because Leo's judge themselves on what they have around them (hence their love of luxury) they can be too appearance conscious at times and too critical of a mates qualities,appearance or talents.
Because they truly need constant input to maintain their vitality they can sometimes become self-serving...occasionally to apoint that it becomes egotistical.
You'll find that love with a Leo is like no other love...and when they decide to give you their heart....they also give you every inch of their soul.
In this lies the Leo vulnerability....when their trust is broken they crumble.
They, again, base their own self judgements on those they adore.
Take away the loved one...and you've taken away their own identity in many ways.
When Leos feel let down (and it usually takes a great deal) they either fall into an abyss of pain and depression..or they get utterly cold and without feeling.
The lion....in protective mode.

Leo Sexuality:
Leo's sexuality is as light filled and life filled as their ruling planet, The Sun.
They are usually full of showmanship and expressive displays of attention.
They enjoy the height of all feelings in life and sexual pleasure is just another glorious field to explore the luxuries ofthe body through.
Leo's can be aggressive, passionate and encompassing lovers with exotic tastes...remember it is the love of life that inspires Leo and they can be wonderfully creative and experimental, especially whenthey feel secure.
They are as proud in passion as they are in any other area of life and perhaps more so.
The more appreciated and cherished they feel the more expressive and passionate they become.

The long-term story:
Leos being fire signs are rather high maintenance partners.
They require attention, nurturing and pampering.
A mate has to be personally strong in them to enhance the partnership but also willing to step occasionally into their Leo's shadow.
Leos are protective to the death for those they love and they are generous and expressive in a long termunion that is constantly stoked and fed.
Keep the campfire metaphor in mind.
Unattended it dies out...mistreated it flares into unpredictable life and burns...but kept constant and tended it turns into a life giving warmth that is undying.

Positive Traits in Love:
Protective, adoring, playful, inventive, generous,supportive, sensual, warm, joyful.

Negative traits:
Possessive, jealous, control issues, coldness, cruelty,selfishness, egotistical, self serving.

What Leo likes:
Feeling Pampered, Being noticed, Being appreciated, Being the boss,Dramatic unions, Mate with a love of life, Receiving giftsSocializing/parties.

What Leo Dislikes:
Apathy, Being ignored, Being criticized, Nagging, One up-manship,Competition, Lying/deceit, Laziness

Leo Love Keywords:
Expressive, demonstrative, engulfing, proud, sensual, adoring, control,egotistical, self-serving, jealousy, coldness, and cruelty.

Scorpio in LoveOctober 23-November 21
Scopio is the fixed-water sign indicating still waters that run very, very deep.
There is an intense and smoldering sexuality and sensuality within every Scorpio as there's is the sign that rules lust and sex.
There are three very different types of Scorpio from the scorpion, to the eagle to either the phoenix or the dove (depending on which symbolism one prefers).
Yet each will have a profound depth and attraction to love and what accompanies love in their life.
They are passionate when they invest their feelings and life is never boring with a Scorpio lover. They thrive when they feel secure and stable within a relationship and enjoy the physical gifts of being in love as much as the emotional ones.
They are mysterious...always....and you'll never know what is on your Scorpio Lovers mind....except when it is being expressed through their passion.
They are watchful, quiet and dedicated mates who can be as protective of the ones they love as they are of their own vulnerable emotions and feelings.
They tend to be the dominate one in any relationship even if it is done very on inherently below the surface levels as feeling in control of a relationshipis one of the ways they can invest their hearts.
They have a notorious jealousy and possessiveness that has been well earned in Scorpio-Scorpios but which turns into an unequaled level of trust and faith in the eagle and the phoenix/dove.

Scorpio Sexuality:
Scorpio is the sign that rules sexuality and the powers of lust.
But their passion is only as deep and profound as it is because it is connected with the ultimate gift of sex.....life.
And these are the beings unafraid to face either life or death and that fearlessness translates into their sexual expressions.
They can reach the highest highs or the lowest lows in whatever passion they pursue and they are the most intense, uninhibited and dynamic lovers in the zodiac.
It comes with deep attachment and needs and a driving urge to come to terms with the enormity of life.

The long term story:
Scorpios require a solid security within a relationship without feeling that they have a doormat as a mate. This is precarious balance and is learned over time. The longer a relationship lasts with a Scorpio...the more secure it tends to become.
They are naturally suspicious (remember they feel and see things the rest of us work to ignore) and with that depth comes the need for some equally powerful self protective mechanisms. Their insecurity and jealousy are by products of self preservation.
Scorpios like to be in control and are very seldom found in subservient roles unless they've opted to move into that spot.
They need passionate mates who can keep up with their desires and they need someone capable of both maintaining a loyalty and their own sense of individuality in order to keep the relationship balanced.
They are basically homebodies feeling most comfortable when they are within their own domains.
They despise being surprised, embarrassed or humiliated and retaliate with swiftness...and strength.
Scorpios are capable of some amazing turn around and growth.
Even a Scorpio who seems entrenched in the scorpion phase can suddenly and dramatically grow wings and sail up intothe heavens.
Never under estimate their powers of rejuvenation on either physical, spiritual or emotional planes.

Positive Traits in Love:
Loyal, supportive, protective, generous with their strength and knowledge, humble, quiet, unshakable, passionate,encompassing.

Negative traits:
Jealousy, possessiveness, obsessive, angry, suspicious,mistrusting, secretive and unreliable.

What Scorpio likes:
Mystery, Secrets, Privacy, Trust/loyalty, Sensuality/passion, Strength,Knowing where they stand, Being acknowledged Honesty/integrity

What Scorpio Dislikes:
Surprises, Lying and deceit, Apathy, Being analyzed/questioned, Being'understood', Excessive compliments, InsincerityBeing embarrassed, Passivity

Scorpio Love Keywords:
Intense, compelling, magnetic, sexual, sensual, intriguing, profound,loyal, tenacious, possessive, jealous, obsessive, bad tempered, secretive.

Time

2005-05-12T11:32:00.000-07:00

Im here alone in this lonely lane
Standing and waiting
for the rite moment
and the rite time

But this long wait
Makes my heart hurts
and my face wet with my tears
Can I go on with the wait?

I feel like Im not going to make it
But I hope I will
So I will just let Him make the decision for me
For time will tell if u are for me n Im for u

Babies

2005-05-12T11:01:00.000-07:00

Hormones

I seldom smile nowdays
Is it due to hormones?
Hormones reacting with emotions
I used to be so happy
so calm, so friendly and so over reacting sometimes
Now Im just like a weather
sometimes I feel moody
Sometimes I feel like yelling
Being angry at everyone
But the main reasons is that Im angry with myself
Sometimes I feel like crying
with all the stuff that happen to me
But emotions are always there
I know that I can't get rid of it
So i just have to live with it
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Baby Talk

Then it comes to a part abt Baby
Im finding it a bit weird when everyone asking me the same questions
Not that Im angry or something
Just feeling confuse with the whole idea

Convo' my collegues, Honey n Me had a few days ago
Honey: Are u pregnant?
Me: No...Why?
Honey:Just asking.....cos we tot that u were
Me: Oh My...how come u guys can come out with this?

And then there was Natasha
Natasha: If u pregnant dun tell anyone...wait till it's already 1 month
Me: Huh....Why are u guys keep asking me this questions?Fyi ...Im NOT pregnant

And rite now it's seem like everyone asking me when Im going to have a baby
U guys seem to think that Im the one who doesn't want to have a baby
Well I want....I really really want to have a baby
But U need two to tango k
Furthermore it's all God's will
Maybe when u guys keep on talking....I will have a baby
Pray for it to happen next month........
*blushing n smiling

Journey of Life

2005-05-09T09:19:00.000-07:00

Everytime Im here....
I felt speechless
I feel like Im blank
No words are coming out of my mouth

But when I start to think
My fingers can't stop moving
And it creates a wonderful sight
That makes me amazed

Inspiration comes and go
Words are all there is
But feelings are meant to be kept
Not wanting anyone to explore them

Cos it's mine and only mine
Always wanting to close my eyes to reality
But I know that memories are meant to be there
So let's us embark to that journey of Life

Because Im a girl

2005-05-08T01:07:00.000-07:00

This is a love story between a girl with a photographer. They meet and fall in love. However, like usual, happy time won't last forever, an accident happened and the guy left without a word...

Girl : Today, we broke up, I wish I could find happiness, can find someone better than you. U jus similar to others tend to forget all the promise. Frankly, I wish u will be suffer, I worry u will find someone prettier and better than me, live happily after and forget my existence. How could you forget the time we shared together? I am so hurt. I think my love towards you is being too deep. Even tough I cursing you still, deep in my heart, I miss you so much, love you so much....

Guy : This is someone I love. Even tough I can't be with her still, deep in heart, she is the only one that I ever love.

The English version of Because Im a girl

Jini - Cuz I'm a Girl

I just can't understand the ways
Of all the men and their mistakes,
You give them all your heart
And then they rip it all away...

You told me how much you loved me,
And how our love was meant to be.
And I believed in you,
I thought that you would set me free...

Chorus
You should've just told me the truth,
That I wasn't the girl for you...
Still I didn't have a clue,
My heart depended on You... Whoah

Although I'll say "I hate you" now,
Though I'll shout and curse you out...
I'll always have love for you,
Because I am a girl.

Been told a man will leave you cold,
Get sick of you and bored...
I know that it's no lie,
I gave my all still I just cry.

Never again will I be fooled,
To give my all when nothing's true...
I won't be played again,
But I will fall in love again...

Chorus
I loved you so...
Now you leave me in the cold
How could this be?
I thought that you'd only love me...

Into the night,
I will pray that you're all right.
You hurt me so,
I just can't let you go ---

You took advantage of my willingness
To do anything for love.
Now I'm the only one in pain...
Will you please take it all away....Oh

Never thought born being a girl,
How I can love you and be burned...
And now I will build a wall,
To never get torn again.

Although I'll say "I hate you" now,
Though I'll shout and curse you out...
I'll always have love for you,
Because I am a girl.

Although I'll say "I hate you" now,
Though I'll shout and curse you out...
I'll always have love for you,
Because I am… a girl.

Mother's Day

2005-05-07T05:56:00.000-07:00

Just now as I was browsing my friend's blog
unexpectedly I saw that she has already put a blog for her mom
I almost forgot that mother's day fall on sunday
I call my mom just now
But she wasn't at home
She's been doing some "project" wif her friend
When I ask her the other time
she told me that she will tell us when the "project" is a success
Hmmm....Mak...mak
But I know that she needs to do this to keep herself busy
Well Mak all the best to your project
And Happy Mother's Day
"Thanks for bringing me to this world
Thanks for giving me all your Love and support
even though I always makes you feel sad with my behaviour dan stuff
But no matter what I did in the past, I know now that you are my only
"Life" in this world
I hope you won't shed a single tears for me
like u always do in the past
Iknow now that whatever u do in the past
are for my own good cos u care
and u wanna make me realise what family is
Thanks mom for all things u did
I love u Mak....."
I will try to call u again later to see whether you at home or not
Until then Hug n Kisses from me to u, Mak

Penyakit dah penawar

2005-05-06T07:10:00.000-07:00

Mak kata penyakit ini datang
supaya kita ingat padaNya
Supaya kita tahu setiap penyakit itu datang
ada penawarnya
Ternyata penawar ada dimana mana
dan Dia mahu kita berusaha mencari
penawar itu
Kita juga berkehendaki berdoa padanya
untuk memberi kita pertunjuk
Oleh itu, ku bersyukur kerna Dia
masih menyayangiku dan mengingatkanku padaNya
Ku terima segala apa yang diambil dan segala apa yang diberi olehnya
Amin!

Sakit

2005-05-05T00:58:00.000-07:00

Tiada apa yang dapat aku tulis
disaat kepala ku berat semacam
Aku terkena asthma attack
yang telah lama tak dapat menghantui diriku
Disaat aku tido ia datang

Kedatangannya membuat tekak ku merasa gatal
Hidung ku merasa tersumbat
Lendiri dan kahak mula mengambik tempat
Mengambik tempat di dada ku
supaya ia menjadi sesak
Pernafas ku mula merasa tersekat-sekat

Aku pun apa lagi
Mula lah adegan batuk membatukkan diriku
Supaya lendiri dah kahak dapat keluar
Dan aku dapat bernafas

Rasa macam lain semacam
aku mencapai "nyawaku"
Ku pegang dia ngan kemas
Lalu ku buka penutupnya
Lalu aku memegang atasnya dan memicitnya ngan kuat
Keluarlah segalah udara segala rasa yang terkandung didalamnya

Tapi dia tak berjaya untuk membuatku berasa lega
Aku mula lagi sekali
Ternyata "nyawaku" tak mau berfungsi lagi
Hampeh tul......

Air mula keluar dari semua tempat di badanku
Terpaksa lah aku pergi ke bilik air dan memuntah
segala lendiri yang berada di dalam tekakku
Aku berjalan ngan gerak "slow motion" ke katil ku
Rasanya terlalu penat untuk ku berjalan
Aku mengambil keputusan untuk duduk di atas kerusi panjang
Tanpa aku sedari aku tertido

Dove

2005-04-30T06:06:00.000-07:00

Dove

At the glance :
The dove as A Feeler
Shy - sometimes
friendly - always
sensitive - sometimes
patient - this part i dun think so
moderate - maybe
supportive - quite
loyal - this part is true
timid - sometimes....
retiring - can't figure out abt tat though
Likes to listen than talk - I listen when I dun have anything to say
Puts ppl's welfare first - I need to especially my Love Ones

A natural team player - yes
Well liked and respected both for your good work and your easy style - I dun know abt this though

You share your perceptions and feelings with others but only after you have ask them what they think or feel - others whom I can trust

You tend to speak indirectly and often solicit the opinions of others
You are not one to assert yourself over others - this one I got to ask my friends and collegues

Trive on collaboration, cooperation, team projects, group activities, mutual support and peaceful togetherness - I need that most of the time

You are rarely in a hurry and work at a steady, even pace.
you dun like pressure and you need some time to adjust to change- I hate pressure so this is true

you prefer to work with others and often take on the role of a peacemaker,
since you dun like conflict or confrontation - I hate when there's confrontation cos after that I will do the work all by myself

desire at work is to be part of a harmonious, productive team - Yup this is definitely TRUE

One of the workshop that I went in learning to find answers abt Myself and how I can cope with ppl around me ( family and friends) and being a good leader. I also learn that I can also be a good motivator.

Temasek ku

2005-04-28T23:41:00.000-07:00

Citer pasal garam dan temasek....

Dia: ah tu lah..even pah pergi kedai depan cakap' apek mintak garam satu!' dier tak paham... org sg apa cakap garam tak paham????

Aku: hehehe diorang dah jadi mat saleh celup ah tu

Dia: pah sengaja tak cakap english..sampai dier panggil manager sume kuar tanya garam tu apa

Aku: heheheh pah gi supermarket ke? atau kedai biasa takkan kedai biasa pun tak tahu garam tu apa

Dia dier dulu kedai biasa..dah tukar jadi macam minimart ah rumah pah mmg kampung melayu per

Aku: minimart pun still tahu apa garam tu apa

Dia: aah tu ari pergi shopping kat fareast...cina tu "boleh" pun dier tak paham.....hmm rupanyer kat far east tu banyak pekerja china mari nyer..slack betul ah

Aku: kan fira dah cakap banyak china nya orang kat sg

Dia: so sg dah tak macam dulu ler...dah lang identiti sg ..maka pah rasa tak bagus la melayu dok situ lagi

Aku: tengok muka takkan ah tak tahu

Dia: tapi pah rasa satu ari akan jadi satu poblem besar kat sg tu

Aku: wat do u mean? problem apa yang akan melanda temasek kita tu?

Dia: sebab orang yg tak sepatutnyer dok sg..ada kat situ..diorang tak paham adat turun temurun tempat tu...nanti mesti ada kekecohan
la macam binatang asing kita bawak pada satu tempat asing..terus ada poblem besar..sama la

Aku: fira rasakan fira patut balik....tak nak kasi muka kat diorang tu biar diorang tahu kita tak seperti apa yang diorang sangka

Semakin hari semakin banyak alien alien di temasek....diorang tu pikir tu negara diorang ke? Tahu lah negara diorang tu tak secanggih negara temasek tapi bila dah masuk negara orang tu pandai pandai lah bawak diri....jangan jadi "seperti rusa masuk kampung" entah betul ke tidak peribahasa aku ni...heheh

**Intermission**

Citer pasal casino lak.........

Dia: aah lagi sekarang nak bukak casino la plak...ni semua ajaran sesat ler

Aku: lagipun yus pun tak nak migrate ke mana mana

Dia: makin orang orang tak senonoh lagi nanti nak duduk kat sg ari ari nak judi

Aku: fira dengar jugak pasal casino tu

Dia: then duit dier bayar orang semua dari hasil judi ni semua pada pah menempah mala petaka la

Aku: tul tu pah tapi jadi ke diorang nak buka casino tu..... i tot masih dalam perbincangan pahlawan_aku: aah kalu dah buta nak duit...tu la..nanti sg poblem besar padahal banyak source lain yang diorang boleh buat untuk sg

Dia: cina buat duit mmg pandai..tapi part tamak haloba tu yg tak tahan...

Aku: diorang mmg mcm tu kalau part duit..... calculative

Dia: aah tapi berkira tu ok la jugak..melayu pun bleh belajar kira pah ok ngan cina..sebab ramai guru2 pah dulu yg buat pah pandai ke sekolah ramai guru cina..so masih guru..tapi cina bangang ni yg bingit

Aku: cina bangang?.... apa seh cina bangang?

Dia: macam famili slenge gak ah

Apa yang akan terjadi pada temasek kita??? Boleh ke kita mengajar anak anak kita kelak?? Temasek yang dulu aman dan damai akan bertukar wajah...boleh ke kita katakan pada mereka temasek tu milik kita?? Susah ahhhh...

Life

2005-04-27T04:13:00.000-07:00

Today I have nothing to say
No thoughts abt my life
but there's a lot of thoughts abt work
Im trying to figure out whether I should
do a time table of my Life
But I know that I can't
Cos I never into organizing things
Im not systematic like Lina
Mine is always spontaneous

keindahan

2005-04-26T06:44:00.000-07:00

Kalau kamu rasa saya tak gembira
Terus terang saya katakan
yang saya amat gembira sekali
Walaupun saya tahu semua itu
hanya sementara

Ku terima keindahan ini
Tapi ku takut ia akan pergi
dari ku tak lama lagi
Tapi selagi aku berdaya
selagi aku masih ada disini
ku harap kita akan tetap bersama

Dugaan

2005-04-25T05:04:00.000-07:00

Dugaan datang tanpa kita sedari
Antara kita boleh menghadapinya
Atau pun tidak

Kalau kita tak dapat menghadapinya
Impian yang kita bina
Musnah ditengah tengah lautan dugaan

Tapi Dia memberi kita dugaan itu
untuk kita sedar bahawa kita hanya insan biasa
yang tidak dapat lari dari dugaanNya

Marilah kita sama2 menghadapinya
Bersyukur ngan pemberianNya
Dan redha ngan kehendakNya

Itulah dia MANUSIA

LOve

2005-04-22T09:43:00.000-07:00

Love is like a sun
Showers us with all the warm that we need
Until we feel warmth with love
Making us feel beautiful in Life

Then without any signal the sun fade away
The black cloud came
The love u once had is now gone
Gone with wind of change

Now u are left alone
Alone in the street
with nothing more to say
But just pray thatLove will come again

*Time will tell

3 years is a long time to let go of Love
But then if it meant to make the other person happy
Letting Love go is the best thing to do
At least u know that cupid arrow once struck your heart

Dear

2005-04-22T07:15:00.000-07:00

This reminds me of u so so much of u ...........

It's just the way you kiss my neck,
That lets me know you care.
It's in the way you look in my eyes,
That tells me you'll be right there.

It's in the way you hold me close,
Until the tears have faded away.
It's in the way you know how I feel,
With just one look, nothing to say.

It's the kisses you place upon my lips,
It's the way your hand fits mine.
It's in the words you told your friends,
We'll be together for all of time.

It's the three words you say everyday,
That make the tears evaporate.
It's in the smiles made just for me,
That saves me before too late.

You make me feel beautiful,
No matter how much skin is on show.
I'm falling so deep in love with you,
You feel the same, it's true, I know.

"You're so in love, it's clear to see",
That's what they tell me now.
"He totally adores and loves you",
Can't believe you fell for me somehow.

There's no feeling of emptiness,
When I have you by my side.
And with just one kiss of yours,
You can erase the pain inside.

And when I lay inside your arms,
I feel so happy, so complete.
You make me want to live,
This feeling I cannot beat.

It's in the way you smile at me,
And whisper, "I love you",
It's the way you do everything,
That lets me say "I love you too".

Sahabat

2005-04-20T05:48:00.000-07:00

Dua insan bertemu
Dan menjalin persahabatan
Persahabatan yang terjalin
berputik menjadi cinta

Ikrar diberi untuk hidup bersama
Tapi halangan dan dugaan datang tanpa diundang
Keluarga yang dirasakan dapat memberi sokongan
menentang perhubungan yang suci

Mereka pasrah
Pasrah ngan ketentuannya
Mahligai istana pasir yang mereka bina
musnah dipukul ombak

Tapi ingatlah kita yang merancang tuhan yang menentukan
Jangan jadikan itu sebagai alasan
Kerana kita tak tahu apa yang akan terjadi dimasa hadapan
Dia yang menentukan jodoh kita
Dan kita kena usaha kearah jodoh itu........

Jangan putus asa wahai sahabatku.......!

Self centre

2005-04-19T16:02:00.000-07:00

I think sometimes I am being self centre
I want everything to go my way
But I always have everything done
Dateline is always on time
No matter how panic I get
I still got everything ready
But I forget one thing
People feelings.........

For me work is work
Play is play
I dun like to mixed my feelings when Im working
cos it aint professional

I know rite now, they are judging me
Judging me for who I am
So as far as Im concern
I will just keep low.....
As low as possible
At least I do my own work
and they do their
But then again if I dun put pressure no work is done
So which is better?

Being cold hearted and have work done on time or
being shweetttt and no work done
You be the judge to it..........

Kemalasan ku

2005-04-17T08:17:00.000-07:00

Hari Malas sedunia.........

Hari ininya hari aku
malas nak keluar......
Nak bergerak ke bilik mandi pun malas
Nak makan pun malas
Apa lagi nak bergerak ke dapur

Nak online pun malas
Nak telephone tapi malas
Nak berbual ngan orang pun malas
Nak dok diam tapi rasanya macam banyak sangat benda nak cakap

Jadi aku bertandang lagi ke sini
Tengok apa yang perlu diperbaiki
apa yang perlu di tambah
Dan semada ada yang sudi bertandang kesini
mencari aku
Rasanya tidak......

Ahhhh
Malasnya aku nak fikir
Tapi otak aku tak boleh berhenti
Rasanya lebih baik aku lepak kat atas katil
Fikir nama baby pun bagus jugak
Ahhh bila lah aku nak ada baby ni? *termenung*

Conclusion : Hari ni hari malas aku....
dan rasanya lebih baik aku tido dari mengingatkan kemalasan ku ini
Tak pun aku gi kacau kacau orang
hmmm sebelum aku sempat kacau orang
Dah ada orang kacau aku..... *mengeluh*

Busy

2005-04-16T03:36:00.000-07:00

Been a bit busy lately....
Dun know if I ever have time to blog
Anyway, here I am writing again
It's raining rite now.......

Here I am listening to my blog song
Damn I love this song and at the same time I hate it......
"Secret Garden" the title from Jerry Mcguire movie
Yus was telling me the other day tat my fav song was on the radio

Dear: Lagu fav u....kat radio
Me: Really? Lagu apa?
Dear: Jerry Mcguire
Me: Secret Garden?...*smile that he remembers....
sadness cos it makes me think abt old times*
Dear: A'ah

That was the reason I put this song in my blog

When u hear a song and tat song makes u wanna cry
What does it mean?
Are u being emotional
over something u do not know or realised?
Or does that song reminds u of something?
Something that keep weighing u down
Making u feel sad, guilty, confused & frustrated
Well this song makes me feel emotional
Emotions that I can never describe
Secrets will always remain a secrets......

*Betrayal is painful than death

maself

2005-04-16T03:35:00.000-07:00

Myself???

You're a very mellow, care-free person. Your
exactly what calm, cool, and collected mean.
You never overreact or panic in a bad situation
and you always know what to do. Everyone goes
to you for advice because you never lose your
head so your very reliable. You tend to take
everything in stride, like in school your moto
is just sit back and relax not to say you dont
pay attention and work, but you dont overexert
yourself. Even though people come to you for
counciling(sp?) you can still be very quite,
your not good with making new friends, but your
extremely close to the ones you have. Remember
its ok to put your emotions out there even
though there is a chance they might get hurt.
Also in school sometimes its good to stress out
a little, just because you think you dont need
to study doesnt mean you should'nt, and also
try to push yourself more even though you might
be good where you are doesnt mean you can,t be
better. Check out my new short story.

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Is this me?

2005-04-15T06:40:00.000-07:00

Is this me?

Your wise quote is: "Reality bites with a
variety of sizes of teeth"(-Tony Follari)
As a person, you think life is just plain
painful, horrible and everything else you don't
like. Happy people confuse you. Alot. I mean,
why are they so happy anyway? You are depressed
and perhaps utterly alone and live life rather
montone. You feel there is no reason to really
be here and feel helpless.

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Horoscope

2005-04-15T05:34:00.000-07:00

Was just reading some of horoscope in the net today......what is this horoscope trying to implying on me and him?
You and Him can overcome any bumps on the road.
Let the party train pass on by, blowing its slightly irritating horn -- the two of you are thinking smaller-scale. But, of course, just as much (if not more) fun will be had. First assemble your favorite snacks, books and magazines, board games, art supplies, great music, hot or cold beverages -- you get the picture. Hole up at whoever's place is coziest (or wherever there are the least irritating roommates). Now you're ready for your mellow-but-giggly voyage to inner space. Have a nice trip!

Interpretion of it (from my buddy and me) :
Buddy: not many agree to u both's frendship
Buddy: but..u both just dont care
Buddy : just ignoring the surrounding
Me: doing the impossible

I guess this is true we are doing the impossible....
then again he always says tat nothing is impossible......
Not even our relationship........

Pesan

2005-04-06T11:57:00.000-07:00

Mak saya pesan lebih baik sibuk kan diri
dari menyibukkan diri........

Tengah busy giler
Mana nak hantar proposals
* buka e-mail
Mana nak gi field trip
* baca kertas layang
Mana nak hantar project baru
* tgk bakul sampah
Mana nak kemas umah
* gigit kuku
Mana nak basuh baju
* tgk tingkap
Mana nak gi dating
* otak bergerak

Minda ku sekarang ni terusik
ngan perangai manusia manusia yang tak bertanggungjawab
yang mencemari alam sekitar ............
membuat otak ku menjadi beku dan dada ku menjadi sesak

Sisters

2005-04-03T17:40:00.000-07:00

Sisters......

13 years ago
In sch..........
Lin, Dayang n Me
was talking abt Life
Life tat we gonna do in the future
Marriage was one of the factors
Since I was a oldest among them
they predicted tat i married first
n Dayang, the youngest
was suppose to get married last.........

Looking abt thru' time 2005
everything changing....
If the world's changing, why can't we?
Changing for a better is good but if changing for the worse
U just end up hurting yourself n ppl around u

Dayang got married
With Is n not to Lan which we tot their relationship would last forever
They got a baby girl .......
Ever since tat fateful day we didn't keep in touch wif her
Then we got to know tat they got divorce
Recently we got to know tat she's a flight stewardest with Emirates

Lin on the other hand got engaged recently
After so long of being together
it's abt time they do something abt their relationship
Going to get married in either end of tis year or next
But I know tat she's not ready abt marriage......
She's not sure whether he's the one
Do some soulsearching sis...
Think before u take the big leap........

Me got married after so many complications
Rather foolish but then again this is the rite thing I should do.......
Hurting other ppl is not my game
Now Im trying to get a baby
but then again I do not know whether I should have one
I guess my career should comes first
No matter wat I am trying to be a good wife to him
Even though I know tat when it comes to the affair of the hearts
I am totally lost..... *lost in the lalang

Lin n me still keep in touch wif each other
but Dayang just gone like dat
We were once friends...
then we became sister
I hope we will not end up as foe.........
Ppl says tat 2's a company 3's a crowd.........
but we were never a crowd.....
We will always be sisterz...........

Death......

2005-04-03T01:13:00.000-08:00

Dated: 030405 Time: 0255 (s'pore)
Place: in the hospital
I knew tat he was ill
but i just got to know tat it was pancrea cancer
Then he had a operation
to remove the cancer
A 79 years old man
wat do u expect doc's??
U should know abt this beforehand
But the operation was a success
Success but with complication
His kidney was failing....
his heart his slowing
Anytime he will be gone..........
My niece was telling me
tat all of them want to take off the life support machine
I told her "dun u care wat ppl want
If u can't find the answer, ask Abah
He will tell u
Just tell him to show a sign.........."
And she told me he did show a sign
tat he want her to take off the life support machine
But we didn't expect his body to resist to dialysis
So they off the dialysis machine
knowing very well tat his BP gonna go down drastically
Leaving him fighting for his last breathe

How I wish tat I was there
my brother in law death was like a dream
A phone call tat I recieved
was like a dream
Dream tat it felt like a nightmare

A good man....loves me n my sibling like his own
He is my Kak Long's husband
Even though Kak Long no longer with us
We still treat him like our brothers
He is one of the greatest brother tat I ever had
He always gave me encouragement advices
He left his daughter Ekin.....
How I wish tat I cud take care of her
but I have my own responsiblity .....
I cud only say to her tat Be Brave!
Just remember tat Allah loves him more

Dated: 030405 Time:0752(s'pore)
Sms came thru'
saying tat
"Mayat akan dimandikan pd kul 0830,
dikebumikan pd kul 1030"
my tears was like rolling
This is really true....
I have to accept the fact.....
But rite now I still can't accept the fact tat he's gone
Leaving us.........
one day we will be following him ........

Just now, when I was saying the Yassin
I felt something.......
I smell a very strong smell of pacai
I just continue my prays for him
May Allah always be with him........

Going down memory lane

2005-03-30T04:50:00.000-08:00

Lagu kasih tak sampai ku hadiahkan padamu
Demi cinta demi kasih dan sayang yang tak pernah luput
Ku simpan ia di dalam peti hatiku
Kita terima ngan hati yang terbuka
walaupun kita tahu status kita
tak memberi ruang untuk kita bersama
Kerna cinta datang tanpa diundang
Dan ini lagunya...........

Indah .. terasa indah
Bila kita terbuai dalam alunan cinta
Sedapat mungkin terciptakan rasa
Keinginan saling memiliki

Namun bila itu semua
Dapat terwujud dalam satu ikatan cinta
Tak semudah seperti yang terbayang
Menyatukan perasaan kita ...

Reff # Tetaplah menjadi bintang di langit
Agar cinta kita akan abadi
Biarlah sinarmu tetap menyinari alam ini
Agar menjadi saksi cinta kita berdua ... berdua ...

Sudah .. terlambat sudah
Kini semua harus berakhir
Mungkin inilah jalan yang terbaik
Dan kita mesti relakan kenyataan .. ini
Menjadi saksi kita berdua ...

Lalu dugaan datang tanpa kita sedari
Disaat itu ku kecewa....
kecewa ngan segala apa yang datang
Mungkin salah ku kerna tak berterus terang
Kita hanya merancang dan tuhan menentukannya

Ku pasrah lalu kucuba melarikan diri dari mu
ngan harapan ko dapat menumpuhkan perhatiaan mu
pada insan bergelar isteri
Ku membuat keputusan
dan ku berikan lagu berhenti berharap padamu

aku tak percaya lagi akan apa yg kau beri
aku terdampar disini tersudut menunggu mati
aku tak percaya lagi akan guna matahari
yg dulu mampu terangi sudut gelap hati ini

aku berhenti berharap dan menunggu datang gelap
sampai nanti suatu saat tak ada cinta kudapat
mengapa ada derita bila bahagia tercipta
mengapa ada sang hitam bila putih menyenangkan...

reff:: aku pulaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaang tanpa dendaaaaaaaaam
kuterimaaaaaaaaa kekalahankuuuuuuuu
aku pulaaaaaaaaaaang tanpa dendaaaaaaaaaaaam
kusalutkannnnnnn kemenanganmu

kau ajarkan aku bahagia kau ajarakan aku derita
kau tunjukan aku bahagia kau tunjukan aku derita
kau berikan aku bahagia kau berikan aku derita....

back to reff

Aku masih juga tak mampu untuk melupakan mu
Ku masih mengharap
tapi harapan ku hanya tinggal separuh
Kerinduan ku membuat aku berada disini
mengingatkan peristiwa peristiwa yang membuat kita bahagia
Dan dugaan yang sekian lama semakin bertambah
membuat aku bertanya sapa diriku dihatimu??
Lalu ko memberi aku keyakinan bahawa aku adalah sebahagian darimu
Dan lagu unintended ko tujukan padaku

you could be my unintended choice
to live my life extended
you could be the one i'll always love
you could be the one who listens to my deepest inquisitions

you could be the one i'll always love
i'll be there as soon as i can
but i'm busy mending broken pieces of the life i had before
first there was the one who challenged all my dreams and all my balance

she could never be as good as you
you could be my unintended choice
to live my life extended
you should be the one i'll always love

i'll be there as soon as i can
but i'm busy mending broken pieces of the life i had before

(repeat)

before you

Setiap saat kita tak lepas dari fitnah dan dugaan
Disaat itu ko betul betul marah pada ku
Marah pada masa silam ku
Kemarahan ko membuat aku terdiam
Kemarahan ko jugak membuat ko memberi aku kata dua
Kata katamu itu membuat aku pasrah....
Pasrah ngan kesilapan ku
Pasrah ngan segala galanya
Ko memberi aku lagu mungkin nanti
Disaat itu hati ku yang separuh menjadi setengah

Saatnya ku berkata mungkin yang terakhir kalinya
Sudahlah lepaskan semua kuyakin inilah waktunya
Mungkin saja kau bukan yang dulu lagi
Mungkin saja rasa itu telah pergi

Dan mungkin bila nanti kita kan bertemu lagi
Satu pintaku jangan kau coba tanyakan kembali
Rasa yang kutinggal mati
Seperti hari kemarin saat semua disini

Dan bila hatimu termenung bangun dari mimpi2mu
Membuka hatimu yang dulu cerita saat bersamaku
Mungkin saja kau bukan yang dulu lagi
Mungkin saja rasa itu telah pergi

Dan mungkin bila nanti kita kan bertemu lagi
Satu pintaku jangan kau coba tanyakan kembali
Rasa yang kutinggal mati
Seperti hari kemarin saat semua disini

Tak usah kau tanyakan lagi simpan untukmu sendiri
Semua sesal yang kau cari semua rasa yang kau beri

Dan kini ko kembali selepas sepurnama mengatakan ko cinta.....
Hatiku masih terguris ngan kata kata mu.....
Katamu rindu membawa mu kepadaku

Tapi aku dapat rasakan aku hanya sparepart
Bila diperlukan ko akan bersama ku
Bila tidak aku hanya sparepart lama yang akan karat dan dibuang begitu saja
Adakah aku sparepart??

Aku masih rindu dan masih sayang
tapi aku masih jugak menangis seorang diri
menangis tentang peristiwa yang membuat hati ku terluka
terluka dan kata katamu.....ku menangis semalam

Kau sempat ucapkan pisah
Saat ku beranjak pergi
Tapi perasaanku
Tak berpaling darimu

Kau ucapkan jangan pergi
Saat kau datang kembali
Tapi luka ini
T'lah membeku tak mencair

Tahukah kamu
Semalam tadi
Aku menangis
Mengingatmu mengenangmu

Mungkin hatiku
Terluka dalam
Atau selalu
Terukirkan kenangan kita

Kau telah hadirkan dia
Untuk menggantikan aku
Tanpa kau sadari
Aku takkan pernah terganti

Kau ingin tinggalkan dia
Dan menyandingku kembaliI
ni takkan adil
Untukku atau pun dirinya

Segala apa pun keputusan mu aku tetap akan terima....
kerna sayang aku berada disini bersama mu
Kerna cinta ku butakan segala mata dan pekakkan telingaku
Tapi sampai bila?

Aku ke yang bersalah

2005-03-29T06:42:00.000-08:00

Terlalu banyak yang nak diperkatakan
Ku tahu ko masih yang dulu tapi adakah perasaan mu tetap sama?
Ku takut ngan kata katamu....
Ku takut ko tak dapat melaksanakannya

Kerna kata kata akan sentiasa membuat kita berfikir
Fikir tentang adanya mentari
tentang cinta
tentang perasaaan
dan tentang kehidupan

Kenapa ku tak dapat merasakan kehangatan cinta semalam?
Kenapa kedingin terus mencengkam hatiku ini??
Bila ku telan rasa kepahitan yang amat mendalam?
Pahit untuk aku menelan kata kata mu......
Aku takut.....

Memory land

2005-03-27T17:12:00.000-08:00

I was going down memory land
Memories tat to me are meant to be kept
Kept tight in the air tight container heart
so tat will stay fresh in my heart
I hope I'll never forget all tat wonderful things
I hope tat I will always be the same Syafira
The same one who make u angry,pissed n think......

But even if I be the same Syafira.....
will u be the same ####???
The one who will never quit
the one who always saystat nothing impossible
Who cares abt work n not his health?
Who making me realised tat
nothing is impossible even when it comes to LOVE

I just pray tat watever may comes
it will makes both of US happy.........
even though things won't go our way.

*walking the path of LIFE.............

Mungkin nanti

2005-03-26T17:05:00.000-08:00

PETER PAN - Mungkin Nanti
Saatnya ku berkata mungkin yang terakhir kalinya
Sudahlah lepaskan semua kuyakin inilah waktunya
Mungkin saja kau bukan yang dulu lagi
Mungkin saja rasa itu telah pergi

Dan mungkin bila nanti kita kan bertemu lagi
Satu pintaku jangan kau coba tanyakan kembali
Rasa yang kutinggal mati
Seperti hari kemarin saat semua disini

Dan bila hatimu termenung bangun dari mimpi2mu
Membuka hatimu yang dulu cerita saat bersamaku
Mungkin saja kau bukan yang dulu lagi
Mungkin saja rasa itu telah pergi

Dan mungkin bila nanti kita kan bertemu lagi
Satu pintaku jangan kau coba tanyakan kembali
Rasa yang kutinggal mati
Seperti hari kemarin saat semua disini

Tak usah kau tanyakan lagi simpan untukmu sendiri
Semua sesal yang kau cari semua rasa yang kau beri

* lagu yang memberi seribu jawapan.......aku terdiam terbatu disini

Questions n Answer

2005-03-25T01:56:00.000-08:00

Questions tat lingers in my head
tat making my heart hurts
Questions tat need answer
tat I still can't figure out

Questions to a simple answer
but why couldn't I still accept it
Questions tat I keep asking my friends
tat they themselves can never give.....

Only opinion tat they voice out to me
Tat opinion is making me thinking
Tat's making me realised
all tat question only led to one answer

Answer tat I should find on my own
Answer tat I need to dig it.....
But when i finally know the answer
will I make a decision?

*Digging for answer....n more answer...

Ada apa ngan Dia

2005-03-24T20:35:00.000-08:00

Ada apa ngan Dia
memberi cinta pada kita.....

Ada apa ngan Dia
membuat kita gembira......

Ada apa ngan Dia
memberi kita harapan.....

Ada apa ngan Dia
memberi kita sesuatu untuk diingati.....

Ada apa ngan Dia
memberi kita sebahagian dari hatinya.......

Ada apa ngan Dia
melingkari gambar yang indah......

Ada apa ngan Dia
membuat kita Jatuh cinta.....

Ada apa ngan Dia
membuat kita menangis......

Ada apa ngan Dia
membuat hati kita terluka.....

Ada apa ngan Dia
membuat perasaan kita bercelaru......

Ada apa ngan Dia
memusnahkan impian yang dibina......

Ada apa ngan Dia
membuat kita rasa bersalah......

Ada apa ngan Dia
membuat kita tercari cari kehilangannya.....

Ada apa ngan Dia
membuat kita tertanya tanya akan pemergiannya.....

Ada apa ngan Dia...........

Girls

2005-03-23T20:29:00.000-08:00

When a GIRL is not arguing,
She is thinking deeply.

When a GIRL looks at u with eyes full ofquestions,
She is wondering how long you will bearound.

When a GIRL answers "i'm fine" after afewseconds,
She is not at all fine.

When a GIRL stares at you,
She is wondering why you are lying.

When a GIRL lays on your chest,
She is wishing for you to be hers forever.

When a GIRL calls you everyday,
She is seeking for your attention.

When a GIRL wants to see you everyday,
She wants to be pampered.

When a GIRL sms's u everyday,
She wants you to reply at least once.

When a GIRL says I love you,
She means it.

When a GIRL says that she can't livewithout you,
She has made up her mind that you are her future.

When a GIRL says "i miss you",
No one in this world can miss you morethan that

When a Girl cry for you,
She's deeply hurt

G.I.R.L.S.............

Lirik Lagu puteri

2005-03-23T00:13:00.000-08:00

Puteri

Harum semerbak kasturi indah mewangi
Cantik rupa parasnya puteri di sinar maya
Cinta bukannya semata yang ku perlu zahirmu
Hey... yeah... yeah...
Puteri... ohh...

Kini kau tiada lagi tinggallah aku sendiri
Rindu di hati ku ini tak dapat aku sembunyi
Entah bila kan kembali
Setelah kau pergi oh...

Puteri... malam ku dingin tiada pujuk rayumu
Kembalilah... ku kehilangan tawa mesramu itu
Ohh puteri... malam ku dingin aku kehilanganmu
Kembalilah... mengertilah oh kekasihku
Ohh... puteri ku

Dengarkanlah rayuan (hati)
Tak sanggup aku kehilanganmu
Di dalam jaga aku keliru
Ohh... mengertilah

KembalilahMalam ku dingin tiada pujuk rayumu
Puteriku...Ku kehilangan tawa mesramu itu
Kembalilah...Malam ku dingin aku kehilanganmu
Kekasihku... mengertilah oh kekasihku... ohh...
Kekasihku... kembalilah...

Fragile hearts..

2005-03-22T13:15:00.000-08:00

Hati ku hancur di saat ko membuka e-mail ku tempoh ari
Tapi setelah aku fikir baik baik.....
salah ku jugak benda seperti itu terjadi
Ko sungguh marah padaku
kemarahan ko membuak buak
mcm kemuntahan lava dari gunung berapi

Mampu kah aku membuat hati dan perasaan mu reda??

Rasanya tidak.........
Ko pergi meninggalkan ku ngan seribu macam persoalan
Aku hanya mampu berdiam....
Dan aku terus saja menunggu
Menunggu sehingga saat ini

Mampukah aku membuat mu tersenyum kembali??

Rasanya tidak.........tidak mungkin
Aku berdiam lagi.....
lalu aku digempak kan oleh citer
perlu kah aku berdiam dan terus membisu?
hanya satu yang ku tahu.....

Ku hanya mampu berserah.......

Hati ku terlalu rapuh
ku rasa kalau ku marah disaat ini
hatiku akan hancur berkecai
dan ko akan melihat ku menundukkan kepala ku
dan air mataku akan mengalir
membasahi pipiku

Disaat itu mampukah ko memujuk ati ku ini?

Tapi hanya satu yang dapat ku ucapkan pada mu
Terima kasih diatas segala galanya
Terima kasih kerana memberikan ku cinta
walaupun ku tahu itu hanya sementara

Sehingga disaat ko bertanya tentang kebisuan ku
aku hanya mampu berdiam....
dan memujuk ati ku ini...........

hatiku yang terlalu fragile ini......

Always Live Life to the Fullest

2005-03-22T12:50:00.000-08:00

Dun let go of Hope,
Hope gives u the strenght to keep going
When u feel like giving up......

Dun ever quit believing in urself
As long as u believe u can
U will have reason for trying

Dun let anyone hold your happiness in their hands
hold it on urs, so it will always be within your reach

Dun measure success or failure by material wealth
But by how u feel
our feelings are determine the richness of our lives
Dun let bad moments overcome u
Be patient, and they will pass

Dun hesitate to reach out for help
we all need it from time to time

Dun run away from love but towards love
coz it is your deepest joy

Dun wait for wat u want to come to u
Go after it with all that u are
knowing tat life will meet u halfway

Dun feel like u've lost
when plans & dreams fall short if your hopes
Anytime you learn something new
abt urself or abt life
u have progressed

Dun do anything tat takes away
from your self respect
feeling good abt urself
is essential to feeling good abt life

Dun forget how to laugh
or be too proud to cry
or too stuborn to smile

Dun ever forget a friend who truly loves u
as it cud be tat friend who are tru to ur need
Dun forget who helped u
grow as your need for more seeds may often reappears

With all the above live life to it's FULLEST

Ku akan pergi...........

2005-03-21T23:34:00.000-08:00

Baru ku tahu sapa diriku dihatimu....
ko sanggup mengatakan yang ko kecian pada ku
dan bila orang tanya ko sapa diri ku
ko katakan aku x mu
Aku tak tahu yang aku sudah menjadi x mu.
Rupanya selama ini aku buta dalam celik dan pekak dalam dengar.......

Kenapa ko tak berterus terang ngan ku?
Kenapa ko masih jugak mahu mengatakan ko sayang padaku
tapi hakikatnya aku sudah tiada lagi.
Perasaan yang aku luahkan dulu hanya symphony yang sumbang.

Kemarahan ku sudah tiada lagi
Mungkin aku patut pergi.
Atau ku pendam kan saja perasaan ku sekarang ni?
Aku takkan menuntut apa apa pun dari mu....
Aku akan pergi........

Selamat Tinggal!..................

2005-03-21T21:20:00.000-08:00

Dunia dunia....apa akan terjadi pada kita ?? umat islam ?? kalau terdapatnya orang orang seperti Dr Amina Wadud.....allah menjadi kan wanita dari tulang rusuk seorang lelaki ( nabi adam a.s dan hawa)....jadi darjat seorang wanita adalah lebih bawah dari seorang lelaki.MMg lah pasal agama ni aku tak berapa reti tapi sikit sebanyak waktu sekolah dulu ada jugak ah aku belajar. Walaupun aku dikirakan teruk dalam pengetahuan islam tapi masih jugak ah aku tahu sedikit sebanyak tentangnya.....

My new Blog

2005-03-21T04:45:00.000-08:00

this is the first time im doing this blog on my own. I do not know if i did it correctly or not....but wat a hack! Too many things I wanted to talk but then words can't came out of my mouth. Rite now Im missing someone so so much. I just wish tat he is here wif me.

*this waiting is bringing pain to me........

Seeing is believing

2005-03-21T04:39:00.000-08:00

My new blog.....